>>1853>this isn't the life i wanted or thought i would have at 23
I would be laughing similarly to >>1854
but I'm too sad to laugh lately. I'm at 21 and have been feeling the same frustration since I moved out of my parents' house ten months ago. I told myself I would only be seeking rent for one year and then use the money I saved to make a down payment on a shitty shack in Fresno, but not only will it not be so soon, I am unemployed and in debt. I have no money, no job, and nobody's offered to take me save for two employers who I failed to live up to on interview day.
But it's not the end. As much as I would like for it to end, it will continue for a long time. Nothing is irreversible, and no matter how hard you want to just lie down and die, you know it's not going to happen that way. When it matters most, you're going to be animated and push yourself in the last moments. Whether it be when you become homeless, or when you're on your last scrap of food, you will fight for the chance to live. It's in your blood to fight, and no amount of depression and Jewish repression will kill that part of you.
Your ancestors look down with confusion and frustration, no doubt, but it is not solely you who they are frustrated at. It's their descendants who failed to raise their progeny properly, and it's the boomers who inherited great wealth and squandered all of it, leaving a generation of untrained, confused children to pick up the mess. We can all relate, I'm sure. At least the zoomers and millennials among us.
I've started couch to 5K and am applying at some mom and pops and service positions that I know are hiring. I used up the last scrap of my savings for glasses so I can get trained for a trucking job if they take me.
If you ever want to talk, I'll be in this thread, and if you need a private place to vent or talk things out, I'll be at http://steamcommunity.com/id/flutterbutterstutter